gurrrggllee

oh man...i feel like i have a hangover or something...although, i dont know what one feels like so i cant say i rlly do.

lol

last night...that post, i have NO CLUE what came over me x_x.....i didnt even haf a legit reason to get THAT angry...argh i think i need MUCH more sleep.

so my solution - staying home.


hahaha itz my solution to *Everything* (ironically?) idunno. lol but ne way

*watches brother walk past as he doesnt even say HI to me =_=*

today's half day..shorter classes, kinda pointless. so 2day ill do my yum yum laundry and put my clothes away

*watches brother come in and pet the cat "hi kitty smitty"*

me: so u say hi to the cat and not to me?

he walks over and pets my head "hiiii"


@_@ =_=


lol


ok so, i dont haf ne thing very inspirational to say, mostly i just wanted to say..well, sorry to my blog? for having that horrible previous post.

i was thinking about how ive heard that being a teenager is the hardest...but, it only seems to be getting worse! i cant imagine an adults life being easier to deal with then being a teenager - or does it only have to do w/ the fact that ur older/more mature. but doesnt that mean that those who are immature are unable to cope w/ adult life?

well obviously...yeah.

i cant picture being an adult as easy...working every day, dealing wid children, hafin to keep going even when the worst things happen...even when ur children are horrible! when ur scared u cant show it and when ur sad u cant cry.

blah~ doesnt sound like something to look forward to.

and does being an adult mean ur more sure of urself? or do u hafta make it happen......what i mean is, does it happen by itself, or do u hafta make it happen?

i think a year can make a huge difference, tha'ts why i say that in high school the grades do make a difference and u can tell...but when ur an adult i guess that changes? do the years all seem the same?

when i say i wanna be a novelist...it's not something i wanna focus on. i want another job while i write and im thinking of teaching because of the 2 month gap there is...(so maybe ill haf time for writing) every1 seems to be going into teaching tho....and then there's the CHILDREN gaah >.<

oh well...in that im not worried about. i kno wat courses i wanna take...and ppl always say i should take other things as a fall back plan. thing is, i dont haf other things to fall back onto....XD

well maybe ill take anthropology or sociology....NOT pyschology!!! FREUD U CRAZY BASTARD..........*looks around*

lol


hmm i think ill finish w/ a lil poem



The summer night is peachy
The taste lingers in the air, making the mouth water
Like twinkling stars the sunlight dances on the leaves

This is paradise

The sunset paints the sky with colour
The summer breeze sighs with comfort
The world seems fuzzy like a fuzzy peach

This is home

The grass tips over as if sleepy
The crickets buzz lazily
The birds sing peaceful melodies

Drifting back into bliss
Taking a sigh of relief
Sinking into the grass

This is love



not the best poem ive written...i guess i dont rlly feel inspired.

gah i still ahf time to decide to go to school....watch me start thinking about it now x_x gah!


l8r pplz ~ and smile!

anger/sadness

>.> stupid blog..posted w/out me telling it to..just managed to get the title in

*is frying her eyes*



im learning how to be more independent. for example right now im rlly upset, but keane said "goodnight" to me even tho he knew i was upset...so im guessing that means...pretty much,

'why r u still herE? im going to slepe. go away."

k so fine then im here now, to blog, instead of going up to him and sying "wth is ur problem, u kno im upset but ur just saying "goodnight" to me? oh fuck yeah now i feel fuckloads better."

w/e i guess im just in a bad mood

>.> i dun want think to continue this way

just go to sleep renae




america - fuck yeah!

15 mins

I have 15 mins spare time of my life right now. Minutes that can be spent in many different ways, to say the least, I think it's obvious which way I chose.

blah screw writing properly~ T_T god im so tired...BLAH writing formally! so boring so BLAH heehehehhehe....

itz funny how i haf so much to say when im within my own brain...but i guess i jsut need to get the ball rollings, or so to say....


yesterday we did this rlly dumb-ass survey for school. jade-chan and i tried to escape but our teacher caught us....she was like, oh u the government did this for u, how will we know if ur being bullied if u dont tell us.....etc @_@

the questionairre was SO stupid. "in the past MONTH....have u been threatened...has someone harassed you...etc..." all stupid things like that......and IN THE PAST MONTH. i mean, COME ON....i feel sorry for the kid who has all that shit happen to them in only a month >.> geeezzz and plus IM IN GR 13! i RULE da SCHOOL............ok well i dont, im more like a floating ghost who travels from classroom to classroom, desperatly searching for a cause! T_T

GMOs

damn GMOs! damn them to HELL! why cant i find ne information on GMOs? WHY?!? i was considering asking smart ppl yesterday, but i totally forgot T_T...this is actually why im on right now, i came to find out about GMOs.....grrr =_= gonna lose another mark for that.


ok here's my average: 77%....(yay)

eng lit: 82
world issues: 79 <= WTF is up w/ this 79? plz....coulda at LEAST given me a 80
math: 71 ....no complaints here

speaking of which we started a new pretty hard unit in math...sigh things r becoming mroe complicated and i find i cant just "wing it" like usual.

school is almost over. my birthday is soon. all these things are suddenly rushing by. i started thinking about change...wat kind of different paths are avialable to me? dramatic changes...its when u rip urself away from one path and then fling urself onto another. kinda wat i did when i transferred to mary ward. that was good....the transfering to OCS, though, debatable. but change also means complicating things. if u rip urself away from one path ur neglecting the path u left (like how i neglected jade-chan =( )

EGGs

eggs make me sick, idunno why, but i eat them ne way

but theyre rdy

i go eat.


mmmm